HATE MY LIFE! MY WORKING LIFE!

Today is November 11, 2009, and today is the third time I am late from work for this month. Two more late and I will again get a memo and be suspended from work. Employees here in our company is only allowed to have five late for a month and if you exceed that quota, there is an equal punishment. Sadly I already received two memos and receiving a memo for the third time is not a part of my plan and it is really embarrassing to get a suspension just because of tardiness. I am not like this! I swear. When I started working I am always early, I look forward to coming to the office, there’s always excitement within me, making me want to work everyday, but that feeling lasted only for about two months and now I am working for a year and eight months and it feels like a punishment for me to go to work. I’ll set up my alarm at 6:15 but I am to lazy to get up and prepare myself. And then this morning again I am late I said to my sister that I don’t want to work anymore, I’m tired, I’m not happy. This was never my dream job and I never get to say that this is really a job since I don’t seem to enjoy it. I always complain, I’m always not in the mood to work and I’m not happy with what I’m doing. Like what most people say for a person to love his/her  job he/she  must  be fully committed to it and he/she must be enjoying it. In my case, I am not enjoying it. I hate working but I have no choice especially now that times are hard. Money is very important and its so difficult to look for a job because of the economic crisis. Actually all I want to do for now is to rest, have a vacation, and sleep a lot since from the time I started working I was deprived of an eight hour sleep since I always have to wake up early and since I live far from the office I come home very late. It sucks! I know. But on the good side, since I have friends here and most of the people from my department are nice, I don’t get to be all gloomy whenever I’m here since I get to talk to interesting and fun people. Haay. If it is not beacause of  my boss, who is very understanding, my friends, and colleagues, perhaps after my second month in this company I already had my resignation.:(